to do all the things I want to do.
I’m trying to remind myself to live in the now, look at what I have, remember I’m lucky, and enjoy the present. I have a terrible problem with the “grass is always greener” mentality. Why is it that we tend to want what we don’t have? I don’t want to waste time wishing. If I live like that, I’ll never leave a daydream.
I want to be wide awake.
Example: I keep wishing for summer. Yes, it’s warm there, in my dreams of summer, but that’s an idealistic, rose-colored vision. I conveniently forget the unbearable humidity, the swarms of mosquitoes, the sunscreen running into my eyes. And how painfully sharp the stench of NYC’s subways become, in the sweltering heat. Let me remind you, no one wears deodorant here.
Make use of the seconds, the minutes, the hours (well whatever’s left after 9-5). The grass is green right here, right now, so fucking step into that cold winter sting and fucking enjoy that shit. It’s free air-conditioning.